Half Full / Half Empty

I cannot decide who I am – an optimist or a realist. Probably I am a little of both (aren’t all of us) but recently, I feel like there has been an almost imperceptible, but yet significant, shift in my standing between these two extremes. And I cannot quite put my finger on it.

The exuberant optimism of my early 20s is definitely a thing of the past. It is not coming back and I don’t think it is a bad thing. It was a misinformed kind of optimism anyway. Heady and happy but not wise.

At the same time, I do not understand the mild but perpetual melancholy so many of my peers are suffering from. It seems unnecessary and self-indulgent. It doesn’t seem sustainable to me, at least not without a conscious effort to nurture it. It seems too much work and frankly, rather absurd. On the other hand, it can also be very real.

Actually, is this even something that I can decide?

Now that I think about it, this is definitely not important enough for me to be writing about it at 3 am.

I think I may just be bored.

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One thought on “Half Full / Half Empty

  1. i agree with you on the unneccessary and self-indulgent part. i do believe there’s always a choice. choosing to ignore it is also a decision, as they say.

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